emo is the new black.

the title has little to do with what is to come.

you know it's kind of depressing trying to work out at SIA sports club's gym. beautiful the scenery may be, but every minute (or even less than that), an aeroplane whizzes past the blue sky dotted with white puffy clouds. and you know that plane is leaving for somewhere other than singapore, carrying a load of passengers, travelers, business people.

and as i try to work my fats away on the ski machine or cycle my thighs to great shape, i wish i was on the plane.

i miss travelling. i want to go to hokkaido/tokyo/kyoto/osaka (in negotiations with the folks at home) slated for dec or may (while not compromising on youth conference). i want to go on my grad trip with melody. our adventures in south america, caribbean and north america. i want to spend my holidays while working as a teacher to travel and see the world.

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this guy just killed his ex-gf and all her friends at her house in wisconsin, USA, and critically wounding one. and then he got shot by police after a massive manhunt. but seriously, i'm sure such things happen in other places as well, wherever guns and insane/unstable people run amok. the US just gets much more publicity in the news. and at the forefront of technology, they will get the most criticism from global watchers about their public policies.

everything is a double-edged sword. from gun laws to the media.

speaking of which, president bu*sh just vetoed a children's health insurance bill. do the republi*cans really want everyone else to hate them? or rather, the repub*lican white house. wouldn't they want to exit the white house with more favorable evaluations after all the things they messed up? (ie. the iraq war and some insane senator and thousands of wrong decisions and the very very late action on bu*sh part to push for climate change to be on his agenda) i'm pretty sure according to gallup/USA today/CNN etc. their job approval ratings should be going down and down and he may surely be falling into a lame-duck presidency very soon.

let's hope for a democratic president to be announced in nov'08. obam*a/cli*nton yayyy. let's see who gets the nomination first. so exciting.

this is all west wing's fault.

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pray for myanmar, would you?

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i think i'm the weirdest person on earth. my coping-with-a-breakup mechanism is to watch lots and lots of tv and dvds. now that fall is here and the tv seasons have started up, i'm hooked on wayyy too many shows.

brothers and sisters
heroes
house
grey's anatomy
private practice
entourage
studio 60 on the sunset strip
pushing daisies

and still awaiting lost to start in feb'08. but it reminds me of the times we used to watch it together.

you know how there's no escaping the memories. everywhere i turn, go, everything (almost) i do, i'm reminded of the good, the bad, the ugly. i wonder when will it all fade. yet i can't bring myself to chuck everything away in the conventional ex-box. there are too many things anyway.

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Leaving/Corrinne May

There's a comfort in this darkness
A familiar road
although i know that you are no good for me
you're a false alibi
you hypnotize and you keep tempting me
to throw away eternity

time to wake-up and shake-up
you've kept me right under your spell for too long
your promise is empty
go dig your claws in somebody else
'cause it won't be me

*i'm leaving
leaving this path behind
don't need your sympathy
i'm leaving
don't try to change my mind

it's a new day
a new way
change is never easy enough
but i'm not giving up
i'm growing and i'm sowing
seeds of life beyond this shell
i'm going to be free
breakout from this cell

shake my faith
you're never going to break me
take my strength
you're never going to make me
turn my back away from the truth
i won't play your games
i'm nobody's fool

i'm leaving
leaving this path behind
don't need your sympathy
i'm leaving
don't try to change my mind

i'm leaving this path behind