grief comes in waves. the pain is felt so much deeper at certain times. the loss is so evident when a new day begins.
the Lord gives me so much strength and comfort in the midst of trials.
it struck me that i was so naive and silly. when my problems are so small and insignificant, where my loss is nothing compared to what others around me are going through.
and as i dealt with them, i had to go for classes. prepare a presentation. finish an assignment. prepare wsc stuff. recruitment drive. agm. talks with the incoming management leadership.
the week really showed me how much i needed the Lord in my life. and how dependent i am for His strength, grace and mercy. it reminded me again that He is the only constant in my life. the only source of peace and comfort. i can call Him, Jesus, my friend.
i lost someone special to me. and i also lost a friend. but i know the latter is called home to be with the Lord. and God took Him home so early and taught everyone of us some important lessons for life.
Si qiu is a christian that i hope i will become. He is the role model for a zealous servant of the Lord, always joyful, disciplined, responsible, dependable. Through the vigil services, funeral service and memorial service, through all the testimonies and stories about si qiu, i have learnt so much about him, and only regret not knowing him better. but his life is a great example of God's work. and he will be greatly missed by so many in Bethany.
Si qiu's vigil/funeral/memorial services also reminded me once again the oneness of Bethany. and how Bethany is one family. how everyone rallied around to support the Ho family. how everyone contributed their part to hold all the services. whether through money or condolences, tears or manual hard work. it was really touching to see my church being one family and it brings comfort to my heart.
another reminder came as another wake-up call to our temporary stay on earth. Si yu's testimony on saturday's memorial service impacted me as he talked about eternal life and how real it has become for him. i'm also reminded once again that things of this world will not last beyond the years. and that all our vain and mindless pursuit of earthly things will come to nothing but futility.
it's hard to let go. but time will heal.
- 2 Timothy4:7
in loving memory of Si Qiu.
A song sung during vigil for Si Qiu.
You have faced the mountains of desperation
You have climbed, you have fought, you have won
But this valley that lies coldly before you,
Casts a shadow you cannot overcome.
Just when you thought you had it all together
You knew ev'ry verse to get you through
But this time all the sorrow
Broke more than just your heart
And reciting all those verses just won't do
When answers aren't enough, there is Jesus.
He is more than just an answer to your prayer.
And your heart will find a safe and peaceful refuge
When answers aren't enough He is there.
Instead of asking, "Why did it happen?"
Think of where it can lead you from here.
And as your pain is slowly easing,
You can find a greater reason
To live your life triumphant through the tears.
When answers aren't enough, there is Jesus.
He is more than just an answer to your prayer.
And your heart will find a safe and peaceful refuge
When answers aren't enough He is there.
He is there.
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